As you probably know, life with FND means things are always changing. This is the fourth week of feeling really well after my IUD was placed. My triggers are still there, but much less annoying. I am able to go shopping with just a wide-brimmed hat. I have been able to play organ and lead the children’s singing time at church for over 3 weeks!
Here’s what I’m doing for my morning routing:
First, I wake up naturally and watch the sunrise and feed the cats. I have a simple breakfast and go for a walk while the sun is coming up. I walk alone for about 20 minutes and notice the sky and the things around me. I have a prayer in my heart the entire time, conversing openly with my Heavenly Father about all that I am concerned about, all that I am thankful for, and things that I need answers for. Sometimes this brings tears as I work out some of the things in my heart.
When I get home, I often sit with the cats and enjoy some more breakfast and more sunshine. I love this time outside. My mind, body, and soul crave sunlight. I write down the things in my heart, plans for the week, things I’m learning, etc. in my notebook.
After that, I take a shower. I dress for the day. I dress up every day. I learned a while back about a lady who had decided to dress up every day. It changed her life. I was inspired to try it. I felt like it couldn’t hurt. It has really helped me feel better about myself, who I am, what I bring to my family, etc. I like beauty. I feel like I act better and feel better when I take time and put a little effort into how I look each day. I have chosen to wear dresses every day. I am really enjoying this. It has brought me back to sewing, shopping for skirts and dresses, and finding things I love.
Then, I do the dishes and listen to the scriptures on my phone while I do the dishes. It helps me feel like I’m helping my family, creating a clean home, and giving myself the gift of a clean kitchen. It feels good to have my hands in the water as I listen to the things that bring me peace and light.
Once I have done that, I clean something for a few minutes with some of my favorite music. Then, I do short bursts of work on the computer, practicing piano, or doing something hard, followed by rest.
By that time, I usually fix breakfast for my family (they sleep in really late) and then I have a nap. But, for the past few days, I haven’t needed a nap every day. There were several days that I didn’t nap at all. I was so shocked! It was like I didn’t even have FND. It made me wonder if my FND has gone into remission. But, I still get headaches from going into the store and being in hard conversations, and all the same triggers, just not as strong as before.
When I wake up from my nap, I start on my afternoon routine, which is more creatively focused. I brainstorm ideas, teach piano (for a couple days), or sew and create things. In the evenings, I fix dinner and watch the sunset.
This has been my routine for a few weeks.
The routine seems to be having a good effect on my mind. I know that when I was really struggling with bad flare ups, I could not have done the piano lessons and the computer work or even the dishes for that matter. It would have been watching the sunrise, sitting outside with the cats, taking more naps, and staying home. However, as things have gotten better, I’ve been able to do more and more. I still don’t think I could get a job anywhere because I never know when it will flare up again.
I just learned that I need to have a hysterectomy, so that will change things with my hormones. I’m a little nervous about how my FND will be with the surgery. But, I keep reminding myself that I have enough faith to do the things I need to do today.
I just hope that eventually I can come back to this good baseline. It’s nice to feel well.